Stuff and things

I'm up at 3+am cus I'm not tired. I slept till 2pm. So not what I want to do. Maybe I'm depressed and totaly ignoring it or something, or just falling into that Sloth pattern that I fear so much. I was proactive for a bit there, after I found out I owe $4500 for housing, and that I have 3 months to get it. I don't want to take out another loan, but I see no other source of recourse. I allready work through workstudy, and most days I'm out at 8 and back at either 6 or 9. I could work graveyard, but then I'd be getting 2 hours of sleep a day, weekends excluded.

It can be done, but can I do it? I'm lazy, whiny and easily stress when things get out of hand. I don't want to do it, thus I haven't yet. I have been delaying either course of action, and I have to stop. I'm going to try to get up at 6 tomorrow, and be fuckin' responsible for myself. Let's see how strong my will is in the morning.

God, sometimes I hate how weak I am.