So Fraking close!

If all goes well (I don't get kicked out of school for low grades, financial aid says I have the cash to take classes, and I don't go insane or quit cus I suck so hard) I shall be done with school by the end of this year.

God, it's taken SO long to get here.

I keep getting stuck on stupid things and end up not doing what I need to do to excell. Everything here is practical. No bullshit can save my grade. I have to actually DO the work and do it WELL.

This quarter is going better than last one. I'm not letting the little things slip through and become big problems later. Still, I'm behind. BUT I'm not going to let it overwhelm me like normal.

Went and got Reiki done for the first time ever last week. Felt awesome! Didn't hurt that the guy doing it was kinda hot ^_^


ummm.... other than hating peoples faces over the last couple of days, everythings going ok.

Gotta move cus the house is getting foreclosed on. stupid depression/recession thingie. Stupid NWO global domination plans messing with my housing situation. grrr.

Stuff and things

I'm up at 3+am cus I'm not tired. I slept till 2pm. So not what I want to do. Maybe I'm depressed and totaly ignoring it or something, or just falling into that Sloth pattern that I fear so much. I was proactive for a bit there, after I found out I owe $4500 for housing, and that I have 3 months to get it. I don't want to take out another loan, but I see no other source of recourse. I allready work through workstudy, and most days I'm out at 8 and back at either 6 or 9. I could work graveyard, but then I'd be getting 2 hours of sleep a day, weekends excluded.

It can be done, but can I do it? I'm lazy, whiny and easily stress when things get out of hand. I don't want to do it, thus I haven't yet. I have been delaying either course of action, and I have to stop. I'm going to try to get up at 6 tomorrow, and be fuckin' responsible for myself. Let's see how strong my will is in the morning.

God, sometimes I hate how weak I am.

First post.

I got so tired of Blurty, with it's wait times and it's losing my posts... I needed a break. So I came here. It's cleaner, better I think. dunno how all of the mechanic's wor or what it's like but I think I'll like it here.

Drama, as it allways does, seeps from gossip and rumor. I've had journals that have caused lots of drama, and have read a couple that have casued drama. I don't want this one to be drama. I will express my feelings in them, and write down when I'm pissed or sad or happy, and it may only be momentarily one of those things. Unless stated it will be a momentary thing. So don't take things to heart. It's a diary, something I've never had because I dinna want others to read over my fleeting thoughts and dreams. What I say will come out harsh and raw and bad, becuase I won't snesor myself. I'll feel and spew it onto this medium, and that will be that.

You've been warned.